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[06 Mar 2007|04:17pm] |
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so, i have avoided livejournal for a while for unknown reasons but guess what......................................................................................................................................................................................
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I'M BACK!
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[29 Apr 2006|07:17pm] |
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i am really starting to hate kelly c.
She is honest, but sometimes she can be a total bitch. just yesterday, she asked micheal(my micheal) out and i laughed about it cuz i thought it was funny. Later on i asked her, "so were u seriously asking him out?" and she got all bitchy and said "what if i was? you never asked him out so why should i care?"
I was beyond pissed.
And in the all great hellhole of a class PE we were playing baseball and while i was running to 2nd bas she went to tag me and she thrust her fist into my gut and it hurt! I even bruised a little.
Add that and some cocky comments and calling me and idiot because i got a "d" and two "c"'s she is pushing her luck. Im about to tell that bitch to back off.
On the other hand, tabi is now coming to breck county next year and i am skipping happy! i just wanna dance around like britney spears in the "im a slave 4 u" video.
* dances and shakes her boo-tay *
okay, enuff of that. Shelby had been grounded for about a month and a half and im going into a serious withdrawl. Oh well, as long as she keeps her mouth shut she's ungrounded tuesday.
well i guess i'll let you go.
good-bye fellow LJ's!
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| a revelation in my life |
[05 Mar 2006|07:55pm] |
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Okay, not to sound all Dr. Phil but i realized something...
I am so fake around the people at Breck County.
Everyday i worry if i look preppy enough to impress my popular friends, and i wonder if i'll look stupid in the preppy clothes, then i wonder if those people really care or not.
Hell, when i walked down the hall and my shoe was untied i would worry that people would think im stupid if i stopped to tie it and i worried they thought i was stupid for leaving it untied.
God, i always say i wanna be original and i am. But i was so worried that it wasnt good enough for people that i freaked out around my true friends (ex: tabi and shelby) and i even twisted stories around to impress them when i knew they didnt care.
Yesterday, i got paranoid and accused tabi of being mad at me when i very well knew she wasnt. All of this high school drama bull shit was fucking w/ my real friendships and it could have ruined it. I lied to the two people (tabi and shelby) i trusted most and all because i was trying to tell them what they wanted to hear about what the Breck people thought of them.
They want the truth! not some bull shit lies like i feed to kids at school because i feel as thought they don't care.
And don't think I'm some retarded emo kid thats gonna log off of here and slit my wrists and huddle in a corner, no ... i am not cool enough. But i am finally realizing i dont give and shit or fuck what these breck kids think and if they don't like the real me they can all shove it up their moms' asses and enjoy it.
I fell so much better now!
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[18 Feb 2006|07:37pm] |
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hey, sorry no recent entries but i have been preoccupied by valentine bullshit, my parents meeting my first real goth friend Chivonne, getting surgery yesterday and worrying over Jason.
Three things I hate right now:
First off, i hate dentists. Yesterday i got my wisdom teeth cut out and my mouth is full of stitches and i can't chew on anything for about a week. They also said, "No sucking on anything". Ha-ha!
Second, i hate valentines day. Everyone was running around blabbing about what they got and how much in love they are. I wish cupid would shoot himself in the ass with one of those arrows.
Third, i hate liking shy guys. Jason is so shy, and even though i've talked ot him before and talked to his brother and Chivonne about him they all have no idea if he likes me. You know why? Because "he's so quiet about it you never know who he likes." Grr! I hate that! I mean i love Jason and everything but i hate it! Mostly because i'm the same way and i need the guy to help me along in going out! * sighs *
So talking is at a minimum now, and i am praying to god my mom will let tabithat come over tommorrow because if not i am gonna go insane becasue i will have spent my entire long weekend doing nothing and be very pissed off at everyone because of it.
Ps,
this whole after-surgery feeling is ten times worst than ANY pms i have ever experienced.
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| jason! |
[02 Feb 2006|06:36pm] |
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i am totally over micheal and i am currently becoming friends with this guy that rides my bus named jason.
he's chivonne's boyfriend's brother and he had kinda lond red hair and glasses (awww) and he wears girls' jeans (which i love) and black band shirts (which i also love)
But anyway, i talked to him today and chivonne said she asked him about me and he said that he thought i was pretty cool and liked me as a friend. So my big plan is to sit by him tomorrow on the bus and talk to him because i am sire deep down in my heart we will go out before ... spring break.
other than that, ashly is being a whore. She tried to get me sent to AE because i told her off like half the people she considers her friends wants to. Lance and Jennifer thought it was funny because she was walking by me in the hall saying i was a bitch and then started to walk away and i said "whatever, just walk away you dumb whore." and she freaked out like "are you saying im a whore because i said youre a bitch?" And i stared at her evily and said "no im calling you a whore because you ARE a whore!"
I really fucking hate her, i really do.
I am also excited because tomorrow im getting this survey back saying who in my school is my "perfect mate"! I am #1 on dustin's list, #4 on Scottie's list and #2 on James' list.
So let's hope for the best!
PS
i love jason
kostlee has AE for PDA
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| micheal - the bastard |
[26 Jan 2006|08:40pm] |
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I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate him, i hate him, i hate him!
I am going to dig a hole, crawl into, get into the fetal position, have someone bury me, and then i will slowly and painfully DIE!
I am so depressed right now ....
Let's give you a re-run of today in the life of whitney:
Me: hey, do you think micheal likes me?
Elizabeth: I dunno, i think he does a lil' bit.
Me: i realy like him and it's driving me crazy, i wanna kno if he likes me.
Elizabeth: do want me to ask him?
Me: ask him out?
Elizabeth: no, if he likes you!
Me: yes please! i wud love you forever.
FASTFORWARD TO LUNCH, 5TH PERIOD
Me: Hey, di you ask him.
Elizabeth: yeah, he said he didn't like you like that.
Me: oh ...
Elizabeth:he wasn't mean or anything, he just said "i like her better as a friend". He was really nice about it.
Me: yeah ... okay ... whatever.
(i walk away and try to hide the fact that i am terribly depressed, i do not look at micheal for the rest of the day)
So yeah, my life sux, and i tried to call shelby to see how it went w/ tyler but no, it was busy. No body loves me today!
I hate my life,
PS
micheal is a whore, jacob has BO and Ashly is moving (score)
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| MICHEAL! (and the possibility of us dating) |
[24 Jan 2006|09:04pm] |
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This is a very important entry that requires very helpful and useful comments filled with life changing and altering advice.
As my subject line says, it is about micheal.
Dear sweet, curly-haired micheal. i do love him so.
but seriously, i need advice. we talk as much as we can and i can sometimes catch him staring at me or think he's talking about me and i (try to) flirt with him and he seems to like me back but i just don't know.
I mean, should i ask him out? Should i ask around and see if he likes me back? Should i wait for him? No, i am sure as hell NOT gonna wait for him. But what if he doesn't like me back and i simply get embarassed and humiliated and heart broken!
GRRRRRR! GRRRRRRRRR! GRRRRRRRRR!
Besides sex and things to play with, why did guys ever get created? They are so strange and difficult to understand and some are just so stupid!
*sighs* I hate my life.
i DO love him though, and i hate sitting here and waiting but i have no idea how to appraoch the idea he likes me back. *sighs again with greater force*
Just please, somebody ...HELP ME!!!!!!!
PS
micheal is so beautiful ... yum-yum
I am praying for shelby and you should 2! she's asking tyler out (makes that cathoilic heart thing with hand across chest)
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[21 Jan 2006|10:36pm] |
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hey whores ...
so yesterday i went to homecoming at hancock county w/ shelby.
woo-hoo (says it with sarcasm)
i am not angry with shelby but i was bored sitting through two basketball games from 6 to 8:30 all alone. then candi, lesley and iysha got there and i talked to them until the game was over and then the dance started.
that's where the sarcasm comes in.
it was somewhat entertaining, me and shelby did get our groove on to "ice, ice baby" and "baby got back" and we lovingly sang along to grillz but still ... she was quite concerned with tyler.
i can't blame her b-cuz i am always concerned with micheal (sighs romantically) but still i felt weird bcuz i didn't know anybody there and everyone was all weird around me.
And i hated to follow her around bcuz i felt like a loser but then again i hated to just sit there like a loser .... so all night i felt like a very large loser.
And to top it all off, i came home and not even two hours after my mom picked me up from shelby's as soon as we woke up i had to babysit Macie from 12:30 to 9:45.
I hate my life, with great passion and pleasure.
And i fucking missed the Avenged Sevenfold and Him live specials tonight.
PS
I am now crawling into a hole and dying right now.
Final thoughts: I love Micheal, I'll miss Shelby ... and i still love Micheal!
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| nothing of interest, i never have anything that is |
[16 Jan 2006|07:05pm] |
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So Saturday was Tabi's bday party and it was quite entertaining. Shelby, me were there and of course when you put us three (plus Mindy)together all hell is sure to break loose.
There were catfights, dogs mensturating on me, tabi got pants-ted, so did i, we watched odd girl out, shelby hit on tabi's mom, i hit on tabi's dog, and we went to Wal-Mart.
That's the short story, but yes we went to Wal-Mart. It is Shelby and I's home away from home. We spend 90% of our time at school and at Wal-Mart but the second is far more entertaining.
The best part was, while tabi went with her mom to go get something me and shelby went to pay for her stuff. In between that and looking around we lost tabi and her mom. So, just to be annoying, we went over to a register and had the nice old lady page them.
Then we say Tabi waving for us at the other end of the store and we waved back. Once we got over there her mom said, "I'm gonna kill them." Whatever Joyce, you love us and always will.
Okay, i'm gonna go get a picture of sonny moore. Bye!
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[13 Jan 2006|09:28pm] |
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hey, sorry no udates for like years. in between actually doing my school work and studying, fretting over being grounded, shopping for christmas and tabi's birthday, and obsessing over micheal i sadly found no time for the all-important livejournal! I deeply and sincerely apologize.
But yesterday i found out some interesting news. This girl i considered myself friends with is bisexual, and every one is freaking out over it saying "im not rooming with her!" but seriously im confused. She's nice to me but now im more anxious about things she says. So i have no idea what will happen.
On a lighter note .... MICHEAL! MICHEAL! MICHEAL!
I am deeply in love with micheal, a boy with hair as long as mine and its as curly as shirley temple's! Sexy to me but whatever. Anyway, he is aware and hints show me he likes me backj but hes doing nothing!
I FUCKING HATE GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY DO!!!!!!!!!
Okay, but tomorrow night is tabi's bday bash and its just gonna be me, her and shelby! woot-woot!
As part of her present i bought her a three-set of those necklaces that say "best friends forever" and the three of us will wear one everyday till we find ourselves in a coffin. In fact i'll wear it even then!
But i am very excited because things are never boring when we get together, especially for one entire night!
IT IS GONNA BE CRAZY!
well as my gay french teacher that looks like a munchin says,
aurevoir!
Ps - richard is a whore and andy is gay!
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so I am currently avoiding shelby.
Because you see I cannot keep my mind from dreaming of her. Every thought I make is of her and I can't get her out of my thoughts. And the thing is I don't want to. I love her and I want to see her and patrick stump (h) have 3926789141236478623781647816296478623786478168 babies, HAHAHAHA
I am just kidding with her...... it's really shelby (zebra_cakes_) yeah you know how I do. I have no life so I am currently updating i someone else's journal. Just for the hell of it. Yeah I said that. I amone sexy mo fo' and you can have me for 895834289057870398 dollars a night. Be jealous. But I am currently booked up for all this month with patrick. Yes we are first name basis. But any who.... I happen to be watching DEAL or NO DEAL.
LOVELY LOVELY
I want to go dancing in a field of dandilions naked while singing- the taste of ink- in the nude.
steal cases and lollipops-
P.ROCK
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TEST TEST TEST
P.ROCK
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